A few years ago doctors took an ultrasound picture of my stomach and found that I have an extra spleen, for backup, in case the original one fails. Unfortunately, the organ I most require a backup for is my brain. Any organ donor volunteers?

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The most important question

February 10, 2021

A couple of times when some old dude has coughed on me loudly in the tram I’ve thought, that’s it, I’ve now got the ‘rona and I’m gonna kick the bucket, so what are the top 5 things I wanna do before I die.

I haven’t really come up with any good answers, the last time I had that scare I wrote the previous blog post, to pass on my deepest life wisdom, but now that that’s done and all, what else is there left?

Should I rather read 177013 before I die or should I rather not? Just to find out what all the fuzz is about? It’s really hard to know without reading it, but if I do read it it’s already too late to unread it.

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The biggest, most impactful thing people can do in their lives, that anyone is capable of, is to be kind. It creates a lasting change. Easy to say, hard to achieve you say? Or perhaps, you care about your close ones but not about strangers? Well, listen to me a bit here.

Let’s imagine the total amount of happiness in the world is measurable with a number. Each time someone’s mood improves, the number nudges up. When some problem occurs somewhere, the World Positivity Score™ gets lower. The total amount of happiness in the world has probably increased over the past centuries, but it also has a lot of room for more improvement.

You might know about the law of conservation of energy – which states that energy can neither be created nor destroyed – only converted from one form to another. What I’m gonna say here, is that there actually is a way to create something from nothing.

If someone acts positive and polite even if there is no reason to, it will brighten the mood of everyone around them, who in turn will spread it to next people. It will turn into a ripple of good that reaches far. It cost the initial polite person nothing to be polite, yet his actions added happiness to the world.

That is how anyone can make a difference. Be nice. Find opportunities to create positive emotions in others. Your act of kindness will increase the total pool of good feelings in the world, which will continue to exist long after you are gone, moving from person to person.

Even you have a personality that creates more distress than joy around you, you can still apply this principle in your life. If you make a conscious effort, you can at least create a bit less negativity, even if it’s just once a year. Or throw a little spice of good vibes on top of your toxicity when you feel like you can.

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Take pills everry day

November 24, 2020

Pregabalin is a pretty chill drug. It’s like alcohol. It makes you relaxed, kinda dizzy, open and talkative. Except while alcohol makes you super emotional and possibly angry, you are always super positive and friendly with the pills.

It’s totally unlike all the benzos, which require you to double your dosage every two days to get the same high, and eventually the withdrawal symptoms either literally kill you or make you wish you died, as every second feels like an eternity where you just want to escape from your body and mind but can’t.

But just like alcohol takes all the happiness from the next day and gives it to you now, I feel like Pregabalin does something similar. Except the place where it gets the happiness to give you comes from somewhere far in the future, and slowly destroys your normal self and your brain cells. It feels kinda spooky.

I guess the plan for now is to build the game when I’m feeling sane and healthy. And do nothing and watch cartoons the days I’m feeling shite. By the way, the estimated time to complete the game and launch it on Steam is currently 1337 years. I hope the people from 3357 AD will like it.

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gamedevlog

October 21, 2020

After trying out a bunch of different mobile gacha games, I decided to build my own game. In Unity.

I haven’t really built any games before. C#, the programming language used in Unity, is also new to me. By now I’ve learned a lot about these tools. But I’m still slowly realizing that those people on the Internet are right. Those who say that it’s best to build a bunch of simple games first before you take on an ambitious project. My code is probably trash, because I lack experience and just don’t know any better.

It’s weird that it’s hard to improve the code too. There isn’t too much advanced information on Unity on the internet. There are all these famous large games built in Unity. The know-how for building them had to come from somewhere right? But I can’t find it. There are mostly YouTube tutorials for beginners. So I guess I will just continue improvising on top of what I have now.

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