Tag: thoughts

For some reason, every good time is like getting drunk for me. Being intoxicated by the fun is amazing, but there is always a hangover waiting, looming behind the passing of some time.

Whenever I enjoy myself, it is always counterbalanced by some random pain soon after.

So I never get to just chill out endlessly in bliss.

It always ends.

And then the pain returns. Maybe not exactly the same pain as the last time, but there will be pain. For sure.

I am grateful for this cycle of pain and pleasure.

I have already grown used to the pain. And just like you can get used to the pain, which will dull it, you can also get used to the pleasures, which will also render them less perceptible.

So since the fun always ends soon enough, I won’t get used to it.

And it will feel like the best fun I ever had, every single time.

Sometimes when you read (or watch) something that makes you feel really strong emotions, you feel weird for days after finishing it.

You feel weird mentally, you feel weird physically.

There’s this strange tightness in your body, like the essence of the thing you read has permeated your whole physical being.

All the things around you remind you of some details from the literary piece.

You can’t read anything else, because nothing else would compare. Reading something else would be akin to sacrilege toward that one masterpiece.

But in a few days, the feeling fades.

And you set out, hungry for more, looking for another story that can make you the same again.

Those kinds of literary works are the best.

(I read some random Korean comic that I liked)

The home appliance I use the most is definitely my water kettle. I make like 4 cups of coffee and 2 cups of tea every day and also use it to make instant foods like noodles and porridges. I had the same kettle ever since I moved out to live on my own, for 20 years. It got really worn out and damaged in different places. The limescale was even seeping through the kettle’s outer plastic.

Now I finally have a new water kettle. I asked for one as a birthday gift. Using the new one makes me happy in some weird, small, but fulfilling way.

It is nice how small things like that can add a bit of joy to your everyday life. I’m really grateful for all the convenience I’ve had.

Can you too find something small like that in your life to celebrate and be grateful for? If you look around, you might notice something you’ve been taking for granted.

The new kettle

I put garlic sauce on almost all of my meals. From today’s anime episode I learned that having a bottle of it always at hand makes me well protected against vampire attacks.

On another topic – the book I’m currently reading, How to Know a Person, is indeed a good read. It’s about communication skills – about being kind and open, about supporting others in different ways.

My own communication skills are in a pretty bad shape. Of course just reading books won’t improve them. Gotta actually practice the skills and be around people to see any improvement.

Reading the book still has been inspiring. Some chapters had emotional stories that brought a tear to my eye. And others taught me various theory about being a nicer person to be around. Putting the theory to practice will require a lot of trying and failing and learning.

I’ll keep trying my best to become at least a bit more humble, curious and kind.

I have a note where I’ve written down a few ideas for blog posts. One of them is to draw a comic strip. I tried to do it for the current post. But the result was so atrocious that I decided against unleashing it on the Internet.

I have nearly zero experience drawing. But it is one of those skills I would like to acquire. I have watched a bunch of tutorial videos about it, but watching them won’t make me draw any better. Actually drawing, regularly, would though. The secret to learning how to draw (or many other skills) is just to practice a lot, so that your brain acquires new neuron connections which allow you to coordinate your imagination, eyes and hands in a better way.

These neuron connection pathways allow you to perform complicated tasks, if trained correctly. But they also determine your personality and your whole life. It is possible to retrain them, update the way your brain works, but it takes time and effort – regardless if you want to change some personality traits or learn how draw.

I’m having a hard time approaching the whole drawing thing. I’m setting myself really high expectations – I want to immediately be good at it, but the results are not so good. That’s probably a pretty common problem for people. If not immediately good at it – just give up.