Tag: thoughts

Sometimes when you read (or watch) something that makes you feel really strong emotions, you feel weird for days after finishing it.

You feel weird mentally, you feel weird physically.

There’s this strange tightness in your body, like the essence of the thing you read has permeated your whole physical being.

All the things around you remind you of some details from the literary piece.

You can’t read anything else, because nothing else would compare. Reading something else would be akin to sacrilege toward that one masterpiece.

But in a few days, the feeling fades.

And you set out, hungry for more, looking for another story that can make you the same again.

Those kinds of literary works are the best.

(I read some random Korean comic that I liked)

The home appliance I use the most is definitely my water kettle. I make like 4 cups of coffee and 2 cups of tea every day and also use it to make instant foods like noodles and porridges. I had the same kettle ever since I moved out to live on my own, for 20 years. It got really worn out and damaged in different places. The limescale was even seeping through the kettle’s outer plastic.

Now I finally have a new water kettle. I asked for one as a birthday gift. Using the new one makes me happy in some weird, small, but fulfilling way.

It is nice how small things like that can add a bit of joy to your everyday life. I’m really grateful for all the convenience I’ve had.

Can you too find something small like that in your life to celebrate and be grateful for? If you look around, you might notice something you’ve been taking for granted.

The new kettle

I put garlic sauce on almost all of my meals. From today’s anime episode I learned that having a bottle of it always at hand makes me well protected against vampire attacks.

On another topic – the book I’m currently reading, How to Know a Person, is indeed a good read. It’s about communication skills – about being kind and open, about supporting others in different ways.

My own communication skills are in a pretty bad shape. Of course just reading books won’t improve them. Gotta actually practice the skills and be around people to see any improvement.

Reading the book still has been inspiring. Some chapters had emotional stories that brought a tear to my eye. And others taught me various theory about being a nicer person to be around. Putting the theory to practice will require a lot of trying and failing and learning.

I’ll keep trying my best to become at least a bit more humble, curious and kind.

I have a note where I’ve written down a few ideas for blog posts. One of them is to draw a comic strip. I tried to do it for the current post. But the result was so atrocious that I decided against unleashing it on the Internet.

I have nearly zero experience drawing. But it is one of those skills I would like to acquire. I have watched a bunch of tutorial videos about it, but watching them won’t make me draw any better. Actually drawing, regularly, would though. The secret to learning how to draw (or many other skills) is just to practice a lot, so that your brain acquires new neuron connections which allow you to coordinate your imagination, eyes and hands in a better way.

These neuron connection pathways allow you to perform complicated tasks, if trained correctly. But they also determine your personality and your whole life. It is possible to retrain them, update the way your brain works, but it takes time and effort – regardless if you want to change some personality traits or learn how draw.

I’m having a hard time approaching the whole drawing thing. I’m setting myself really high expectations – I want to immediately be good at it, but the results are not so good. That’s probably a pretty common problem for people. If not immediately good at it – just give up.

Here’s a little continuation to the previous post.

When I met my friends back then, we talked a bit about life goals. Like, when you are in high school, that’s what is motivating you, finishing it is a goal to work towards. After you graduate, the next goal will be getting your university degree. My friend had just finished his master’s degree. After that is done, you are left with a sense of purposelessness – up until then you had specific milestones to achieve, but now you are left with this uncertainty. You just keep living, a day at a time.

I’ve been in that spot for so long now. I am guessing some others find their new goals – in work, family or hobbies. But I have my depression and stuff which certainly don’t help in that. Regardless, for a few days after writing the previous blog post, I did feel a certain drive. To write more blog entries. And to look for interesting things to do, so that I have something to write about.

Not sure if blogging really is gonna be this huge motivator for me, but I gotta admit, writing is pretty fun sometimes. Even if having a goal to write regularly kinda makes it a chore too.